Change - with a capital "C"

It's been a long time. I know, it's terrible. I failed at my inital goal of a couple of posts a week. 

I won't try to make excuses but my life has been chock full of Changes. A lot of changes. 

Shortly before my last post, my Dad passed away. He had a long battle with alcoholism and his body just shut down. My family has been dealing with a lot since this all happened so I didn't know how to write this post. I was afraid of it really. I didn't want to re-open the floodgates of emotion that I have already dealt with since his passing in December. But I think I am in a peaceful place and can deal with it.

Proud Auntie with Niece LT

Happiness came after my dad's passing. My little niece was born! Little LT was born on February 27th, 2012 shortly before 8:30 in the morning. I spent all night in the hospital with my Big Sis and got to greet this gorgeous girl as she came in to the world! I am absolutely obsessed with this "little" girl. She has grown so much and she was already a big "little" girl when she was born. 

I spend as much time as possible with her - I go there after class, before work, after work. Whenever I can! I am moving in with my big sis and her hubby this summer just so I can be roomies with this sweetheart! I can't wait to be that close to her.

Me, my Mom, Big Sis and Little LT

Now, the biggest Change. My Mom was recently diagnosed with Rectal Cancer. Cancer - it's a four letter word. The woman I aspire to be, the woman I have always had in my life, the woman I could always turn to now has Cancer. She is an extremely healthy lady, so it makes no sense to us as to why she would get this diagnosis. But we need to deal with it. 

I'm not going to get into the medical side of her diagnosis, you can turn to my big sis for that, but in the future I will be sharing our experiences with it. 

Now I move on with dealing with the big Changes in my life. I hope that I will be better at posting as it is a little therapeutic for me. Writing has always been a safe place for me to share my emotions and feelings. 

For now, this is it. I hope to share more later,

Kelsey Jean